Midge's Blog

a couple more photos

Got a little time to kill while dinner's in the oven, so here's the much anticipated photo of my haircut, which now that I look at it, looks really similar from the front, but it's much shorter in the back. Excuse the crazy self portait, it's the best I could do!

And just for proper documentation (and cause it's a really funny pic), here is the action shot of Boris NOT tonging my wiener at SHDH.

(photo courtesy of Duane Storey)

Super Happy!

Not only am I super happy about my super new haircut that Martin gave me this afternoon (photos to come), but I also just got back from Super Happy Dev House, hosted by the lovely people at Bryght.

(photo courtesy kk+)

I happened to end up working for a chunk of the evening next to Steven Wittens from Bryght who was super great and helped me out with a bunch of Drupal modules and stuff. And Boris was as always super generous helping me out with my ongoing GMap struggle...he was also nice enough not to tong my wiener during his BBQ duties.

(photo courtesy of Roland)

I also met Liz Henry, who I was sitting by in the afternoon before I headed out for my haircut. She's from Social Text and is up here from near San Francisco. I could swear I've seen/read stuff from her before, but can't put my finger on it.

(photo courtesy of Roland)

Finally, had some great chats with Mack Hardy from The Post Carbon Institute and Relocalize.net which is a great site that anyone with activist tendencies should definitely check out. Mack seems to be using a lot of Drupal features in a similar way as what I'm trying to do on this site I've been working on, so he gave me a lot of great ideas of what might be possible with the site--thanks Mack!

And thanks to Bryght and Social Text for putting on a great event (which for the record should be going on until 1am if you are looking for something to do for the next hour and a half)!

living with a chronic illness is hard.

if you don't want to be bothered with overly personal reflection, stop reading *now*.

going through the breakup of a 4.5 year relationship, transitioning from university life to a new 'real' job, moving, and a death in the family in a very short amount of time would be hard for anyone. adding having ibs to the mix makes it a real test of character. i figure it would be easy enough to deal with either all the changes or the ibs, but both is a lot to handle. and the way things have been going, i'm hoping that it's just the stress that's made me sicker than usual for the last couple months, and not as a doctor once put it, something more sinister. but of course, there's no way of knowing. i was in the hospital for the better part of two days last week, and i still don't know what's wrong with me. doctors ironically never seem to be able to help. and i've had no real luck with any kind of specialists either. i should find a new naturopath now that i've moved... but to be honest, i tend to feel kind of defeated when it comes to 'getting help'. more than anything it seems to end up being a big waste of time--lots of waiting, trying things that do nothing or make me feel worse, but rarely or maybe never anything that actually helps.

i know i should just accept my reality, but that's the thing i can't let go of...the hope that somehow someday i'll find something that will help. i don't even need to be cured, just half as bad would be totally life changing. so for now, all i can take comfort in is the knowledge that a shitty day is nearly over, and tomorrow holds the potential for one of those rare days where i feel okay. i doubt tomorrow will be one of those days knowing how things have been going, but maybe it will be better than today, and i guess that will have to be good enough.